9 DPO

This morning I took another IC test and it was a BFN. I don't trust these tests.

Last month when I was using an IC OPK they kept coming back negative, but the same time I used an Answer OPK and it was positive. So I don't trust these things.

In the past I've taken FRER, Clearblue Easy and Answer pregnancy tests. Since the IC measures at 20mlU I figured I would have a better chance at getting a BFP. But I'm always getting evap lines. So today I decided to get another FRER since I know I've never gotten any evap lines with those. It was always a BFN or a BFP. I have read there were FRER tests taht picked up hcg levels at 12.5mlU, so I figured why not give it a try.

So I waited a bit to make sure I had enough pee as I had gone like 3 hours earlier. I decided to eat lunch first. Then I decided to go take the test.

Much to my surprise, I got a VERY FAINT BFP! And it's pink, but faint. I couldn't believe my eyes so I took a pic with my camera phone and sent it off to the hubby. Knowing he could enver see the evap lines like I did, I figured if he could see this one it's a definite yes.

He immediately said he see's a faint line. So it's not my imagination. I was shaking. I'm in disbelief right now. He wanted me to take another test but I told him I'm waiting until tomorrow morning so I can use FMU instead and perhaps get a darker line. Besides, I'll be 10 dpo tomorrow. It's still early.

If I get another BFP tomorrow, I'm calling my dr for my blood work to be done. Since I am high risk, with my multiple miscarriages and my babies being premature this will help us watch the hcg count and see how I'm progressing.

Until tomorrow.....

5 DPO

It's about 5pm and I'm about to leave to Vegas. Just waiting for hubby to arrive with MIL to watch the kids. She wasn't home earlier when hubby went to pick her up. Turns out she thought it was tomorrow. So now I'm going to arrive late and I hate arriving late at night anywhere after a long drive or flight. In this case it's a 5 hour drive.

Anyways, about an hour ago the cramping started again. It's a dull cramp, but it bothers me. I make take some tylenol. I am 5 dpo today. Hoping time will go by quickly and I get that BFP.

I'll post when I return to let you know who the HD Expo went, that's the convention I'm attending in relation to my studies in college. Since I want to start my own biz in Interior Design a year before I graduate with my BFF (she's been in the biz for 12 yrs), I thought I'd get a head start (I graduate in 2 years) and make some friends and get some info. This will be interesting and fun since it's in Vegas.

I use to spend every summer out there with my grandparents as a child, so it's like my second home. But as an adult, I don;t get very many opportunities to go and enjoy other than spending time with the family. So I can't wait. :-)

New round

So we're on a new round of ai/iui this month. This is our 3rd cycle trying, 2nd with the ai/iui.

I took vitex from the first day of my cycle and drank fertilitea about twice a day this time.

I actually ovulated a day later than I typically do, I ovulated on day 15 instead of day 14. Dr asked if anything happened in the last week like stress or illness. I will say that I had an incident with my bff's bf the week prior but had forgotten about it.

He's such an idiot. We go to school together, but he has a problem with her going. It's a control issue if you ask me. I went to pick her up (we carpool since it's about a 40 minute drive and we take the same classes) and he came storming out to my car yelling and cussing at me saying I'm making his life a living hell. I was not expecting that one. So I called the police since I felt threatened. He was touching my car, leaning in yelling at me through my window. I called my hubby after I called the police. They showed up and talked to him. Explained to him what we all think, there's nothing wring with her going to school and maybe he should seek counseling.

Well, she ended up leaving him. She moved out with her kids to her brothers until she can find a place of her own. I feel bad for it all and apologized to her for calling the police and she actually said she was glad I did. She felt he needed to learn that there is nothing wrong with her getting an education. Can you believe he actually does want to get couple's counseling? I'm glad he's taking that step.

Drama, I can't stand it. I'm a simple, peaceful easy going type of person. So when he did that, I was shocked. I've never seen him act like that before and she never did either.

Well, I think that may have set me off on ovulating bc I was pretty upset for a couple days after that. Or the vitex and tea. I don't know.

But I can say this, when I went in for the ultrasound, I had one egg in my left ovary that was 18mm in size and ready to release he said in the next 12 hours. In my right ovary I had two that were 9mm each not ready. Dr said that since I have a clear history that not to worry, they'll just dissolve back into my body.

The next morning we came in and the egg had just released from the ovary. Dr said it couldn't have been a more prefect time for the ai. So now I am on 4 dpo just waiting out the dreaded two week period. I'm actually more patient this time around. Hubby isn't though. He asks me every day when can I begin testing.

I'm not sure when I'll begin testing since implantation takes anywhere from 6-8 days to occur. I might get that itch and begin during that time. Or I might wait until 10 dpo. Typically I begin to start spotting before my period around 10-11 dpo. So I may test before then just for the heck of it. We'll see. Either way, we're going to find out eventually if it took or not.

So, I also have finals this week and next. This week for my online classes and next week for my on campus classes. I hate finals. It's so hard when you hav been out of school for 15 years to go back. I will say that in the beginning everything seemed so easy. I have all A's and B's. But this quarter has proven to be challenging. I have a C in one of my interior design classes. I think she's too hard though on us. My other BFF is an interior designer now for 12 years. She took a look at my grades, comments and work and she said my work has been great (this class is drawing mostly on the history of interior design). She said it may be bc she's a designer herself, she expects more from us.

I don't know, all I know is I can't wait until I graduate. I'm already in my sophomore year so I'm almost there, kinda. :-)

I would say what's been hardest for me is the algebra class. I love basic math and can figure things in my head quick. But when you ask me about y+-2x=16 is, forget it! And to think I have to take algebra 2 next. My last math class will be geometry, ugh. I'm going to have to ask my daughters friends for help (she's ok in algebra, but told me two of her friends love it and excel in it).

Long time no post

Geez, for awhile there I forgot my password and with school, work and kids, I just didn't have time to come back on here. Plus this past week were mid terms and I'd been working on that.

But here I am now.

So here's an update.

Last month I experienced a chemical pregnancy as I posted before. Hubby got tested and come to find out he has a low sperm count. In the past he had a vasectomy, but it failed, I got pregnant and miscarried that one, who would've thought that we'd want another after all that?

So we went in for an artificial insemination with his good remaining sperm. We actually had to do this with my son since I miscarried then and after that couldn't get pregnant for a whole year. I was diagnosed with secondary infertility.

Well, when we went in for the procedure, dr says I have a tilted cervix and it's facing towards my back, which can explain the miscarriages and inability to conceive easily.

Today is 10dpo (days past ovulation) for me and I'm spotting like I typically do 3-4 days before I start my period. I'm so sad.

Tomorrow I'll be calling my dr and see what else we can do. We're considering going back on Clomid (I took this when I got pg with my son 8 years ago) to increase our chances.

Clomid forces you to ovulate, and although I am ovulating, with his low sperm count, if I had two eggs, I could possibly increase my chances of getting one of them fertilized (or two). We discussed with each other (hubby and I that we could end up with two instead of one and that I'd actually have to take time off from school at that point. He was fine with that and even said he'll help out just as he did when we had the other kids. And he did. He actually got up every night even though he gets up at 4 am to get ready for work, he really did it and I was thankful for that.

So you're probably thinking that maybe with school, my at home business and 3 other kids maybe I have too much going on. Too much stress? Possibly, but I've been taking it easy. I have 3 classes, two online. So that has helped with me not having to travel so frequently to school since it is about 30 minutes with NO traffic way.

The kids? Not so different than any other time in my life really. I mean, my oldest just turned 15 and my youngest just turned 6. When I had my son my olderst was already 7. Business ahs been slow so I'm not stressing over that since it leaves more time for family and school.

And I'm sure you're thinking this one, why do you want another when you already have 3?

Well, I've always wanted a big family. It's just in me. I thought after my youngest was born I was through. But that feeling came back in the last 2 years and I have been fighting it off. Of course, now that we're trying, it's proving to be difficult.

We'll see how it goes though.

Twilight

So this movie just came out on DVD. I bought all the books for my daughter for Christmas. I really didn't care for all the hoopla in regards to this movie. But I finally saw it at my daughters request. Oh my gosh! What the heck was I waiting for???? I love this movie.

I so love Edward (Robert Pattinson). Oh my gosh he's hot!!! So now I'm hooked and an official Twilight fan. I can't wait for the next movie to come out and I'll be borrowing my daughters books to read. I watched the movie twice over the weekend and plan on buying it tomorrow when I'm out and about.

Although the analytical part of me realizes this movie doesn't make that much sense, I love it! I have questions about this movie though. For instance, if Edward was 17 in 1918 when he became a vampire, then why does he act weird at times, almonst unhuman like? If he was human before, why does he act like he doesn't know what sleep is like, he finds it fascinating? I mean, hello??? He use to sleep so he shjould know what it feels like and what it is. Just little things like that bother me. But I can get past them. I mean, he is hot! hehe

So I'll be first in line when the New Moon comes out in November.

And of course I bought the soundtrack on itunes. Love it!

Bad News

It turns out I'm no longer pregnant. It was a chemical pregnancy. I'm sad, but ok.

These things happen and I'm ok with that.

I'll try to post again later. I have quite a bit of homework that needs to get done today.

Good Morning

Today after I take two of my kids to school (the other has afternoon kindergarten) I'll be off for another blood test. I'm a little nervous. I'm hoping my hcg levels have doubled like they should and all will be fine. This is the most nerve wracking part of the pregnancy for me; the first trimester. Oh and of course the battery of tests ran in the first month of the second trimester.

I've been awake since 4:30 this morning. It seems in the last5 days, I fall asleep earlier and wake up earlier. I don't mind waking up earlier, but since I am pregnant, by noon I am really tired. But I can't nap bc I'm afraid I'll over sleep and my kids will be waiting at school for me wondering where mom is. But by the time they get off from school, and I have one of the craziest schedules, with my son getting out at 1:55, my youngest daughter at 3:05 and then my oldest daughter at 6pm bc of softball practice, I'm all over the map. It's just as bad in the morning. We leave by 7:40 am, my sons school starts at 7:55. But there is this huge long drive thru line (his school is valet drop off) that by the time we finally reach the school it's 8am. I know we should leave earlier, but if we do, we are there before anyone else (yard duties) and I can't leave him alone. My oldest starts at 8:15, but the school is right next door, so we just hop over there next.

But since there are 3 schools on one block, literally, elementary, junior high and high school, there is traffic galore. it's a mad house getting there an back. By the time i get back home, it's 8:30. Then my youngest goes at 11:35.

So I only have an hour and a half before I have to leave again to pick up my son. And the schools are about 5 or so miles (I forgot and don't really like to think how far I drive 10 times a day, LOL) from the house and no bus.

So....there's my daily schedule. Not to mention the work I do at home and school work. I'm so glad I'm taking most of my classes online. I really thought it would be hard and it was at first. But since my school offers sit ins whenever I want (I can sit in during a day class if I need more instruction) this can help. I haven't done it yet as I don't get much time to and it's about half an hour from the house with no traffic. But if I get to a point where I need to, hubby said he'll come home early enough one day (maybe per week if I need to or just once) so I can sit in.

Well, I'm off. I'll report back when I get my results later this afternoon.

I'm pregnant

So I discovered I was pregnant on Friday. Pretty crazy considering we already have 3 kids, I'm going to school full time (I've actually made most of my classes online bc I got sick of the drive, with the exception of one on campus now) and we're adding/remodeling the house beginning in May.

But there was that desire that I thought was long gone. Both of us started desiring to have another child about a month ago. We were going to wait until May to start trying, but we kind of jumped into it thinking it would take a few months. Nope. I'm pregnant. But I'm so early they're watching my hcg levels, as on Friday it was just 10. Tomorrow I take another blood test to see if they have climbed. I'm not even 4 weeks yet, until Tuesday at least.

I've had 2 miscarriages in the past, the last one being 5 years ago next month. 2 preemies and all three I went into premature labor with but put on brethine to extend the pregnancies.

I only told my grandma, both bff's and another friend of mine, besides the kids and hubby of course.

A part of me is leery to share since I've lost 2 before. But I'm also excited and want to share with everyone.

I'm praying this baby will be healthy. That's all I care about.

Hubby told his friend and as soon as he gets back from his weekend biz trip, he'll tell his mom.

I want to surprise my mom at Easter when we go to visit. I plan on putting a copy of the ultrasound in an Easter card and surprising her that way. She'll probably begin to think I have this thing with cards and surprises seeing back in December when I got my accident settlement, I gave her some money for Christmas that solved her bills.

My mom works hard for minimum wage in Nevada at a Casino. She's alone as my dad and her are separated. But her job sucks seeing as she hasn't gotten a wage in at least 3 years and they have no intentions of giving raises out to anyone soon, even though they're taking over some little mini casinos as I call them. Meaning they must have some money somewhere to do that, right??!

She was so emotional, but so happy and so was I. It was the least I could do. I would help her every day if I could.

So anyways, I thought I'd start a little trend with the cards, LOL.

I've kind of forgotten what it's like to be pregnant. My tummy keeps rumbling everytime I eat, I've had little headaches nearly every day for the last 4 days. I'm tired and out of breath with every move I make.

But I loook forward to it all. And I don't plan to take any time off from school for this since most of my classes are online, it makes life much easier for me. The only time I plan on taking off is the week I deliver and that's it. Since I can be at home with the baby and I have the greatest hubby. He was such a help when the others were born.

Well, I'm off for now. I have some homework and a quiz to do.

New Blog

This is my new blog. Although I'm not new to blogging, I wanted to create a place where I can blog about anything, particularly in my own life, other than work.

But I'm not sure I like this skin. I'm not into blue. But I love tropical. So I'm still searching for a new one that catches my eye. In the meantime, this is what it looks like.